I haven't written here in a while. I'm here to write about last night, because Facebook isn't a blogging site, and this is way too personal for Tumblr. 

So yeah, now that the excuses are out of the way...

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I had to arrive at the venue a little earlier than everyone because I was part of the band; we had to 'sound check' the technical things and get a feel of the stage. I arrived there with Jeremy (who picked me up all the way from my house. Ikaw na) who wasn't allowed in the actual hall and had to stay outside. I mostly stayed with him, and when I went in to practice, a person who looked like the head waiter asked us to leave for a while so they could practice serving, so I went back to Jeremy. And ended up not sound checking.. yay.

Registration started soon after, and we got these cool pocket watches as a souvenir :> I think it's supposed to be like the rabbit's watch, from Alice in Wonderland, because that was the theme. XD Jeremy put it on at once and kept checking the time every two minutes regardless of his wristwatch. (like a boss y/n) There was also a drink me station, complete with blue drinks (like Alice's before she entered wonderland) and cocktail tables. I can't place what the drink was but it tasted nice :3 By that time, other people were arriving, and everyone looked so nice and stunning and so formal. 

One thing I liked a lot about prom was all the boys all prettied up :> :> :> (in case you've forgotten/didn't know: I adore boys' formal wear). Special mentions: Nicolo (who looked nice and warm in his turtleneck), Franz (badass ensemble with white accents), Paul (for pulling off the bowtie most splendidly), Neil (WHY DO YOU LOOK SO NATURAL IN FORMAL EVEN), Adi (who had hair like Rham and glasses like Jake), Andrei (hot DAMN bro, I mean REALLY), Kirby (imho should have won Best Dressed, sorry), and of course, Sir Erin. :D There were girls who looked amazing too, but I'll leave that to the boys to decide :)) Can't help but mention Ana though, who I barely recognized until she was three feet away from me XD

While everyone was mingling, Kevin came out of the doors and announced that it was alright to go in. Jeremy, who was warm even without his suit on, took me inside (where it was a freakin' tundra... but it got better). The place was wider than I expected, with a stage in front, the space in front of it cleared for dancing, and the white tables with pink centerpieces surrounding. Jeremy and I sat down at our table and waited for the rest to come, and whiled away the time by playing on his phone, with me epically failing to use the touch pad yeaaah

After we got bored enough, we went to join the other Potassium table, where Joanne, Mau, and Gio were sitting. It was cold there, so I left Jeremy and went to Nico, and took him outside to warm up. I found Neil and fangirled over his suit, then he took me to where the other people were, where Adi was waiting for Justice (he he) and everybody else was waiting for.. well, everyone's favorite ship. (I know they don't want to be said by name, so yeah, cool.) Dario came with Jeremy, who I forgot to tell where I was going heheh. We took Josef to registration when I spotted everyone's favorite ship arrive and I practically bounced there and exploded from the adorable. Then I calmed down and we went inside =))

When we sat down again, this time with CJ and Jade, CJ kept making 'casual conversation', always starting with 'I beat the Elite Four' :P Kevin told us to settle down afterward, then the program started. Kevin, Betito, and Joaquin were the hosts, and although I can't appreciate Joaquin's presence fully (I never knew him that well) I know how much it meant to people like Camia, etc, so I was happy he was there XD Kevin arguably talked the most, which also meant everyone wanted to shoot him afterward :)) I remember Betito looking hilarious during coti, though.

Oh right, coti! It was so magical and pretty and the black/white asymmetry of the guys' and girls' dresses <3 I would have appreciated it better had I seen it properly though, haha. oh well

Then dinner!! I'd been dreading it, because I am picky with food and I was hungry. But the food was okay, not great, but okay. I liked the cream puffs so much that when I saw Neil not eat his when I went to their table, I asked for it :P It was that good ok. The other performers also played music, and Dario was all *_* because they were gr8.

I was the last performer for dinner, and I was freaking nervous because I've never sung on stage. My hands were clammy as Jeremy escorted me to stage, while I sang (A Little Less Sixteen Candles), and ten minutes after. I still think my nerves affected my singing, but whatever, that's done! :))

After that was our tribute to 2012 and the turnover ceremony, where 2012's president (Lance) and then 2013's (Sam) talked, then I saw Sam carry back to her table what looked like a white Babahl lamp (from AAI).. and that I had a black one at home. And then prom royalty was announced, and Maxine and Arman won :3 Pauline and TJ won Best Dressed... I forget the 2012 people. Also, the Prom Queen was also Best Dressed o_o She did look awesome though :D

The winners opened the dancing, but Jeremy didn't want to dance until there were many people :)) So we went to have our formal picture, then went back to dance. It was both the first time for us, dancing with a partner, and it was predictably terrible :)) Still kind of fun. Then we broke off to dance with other people for a while. Here's a list that's very roughly in order because I have no idea what the order is =))

 

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Most of the time, you hear your classmates gripe about aiming to simply pass, not excel. The notion is new to you, since you've never had to struggle with passing at all. But months and years pass, and the teachers are demanding, the lessons are challenging, and everyone--even outsiders--expects the very best from you. Unfortunately, your very best is only barely passable, almost commonplace, here.

 

The actual very best is from another caste (for that was what everyone seemed to call it) of people you never knew existed before--people who are A-generating machines. You wonder if how much effort they exert into studying, then thought about yourself.

 

You have never had to study--everything made sense the first time it was explained. Studying is unnatural, almost foreign to you, but this mindblasting school has forced you to learn how to study. It's boring and tedious, but the light at the end of the tunnel is when you get it. It's pretty fun getting there, you guess.

But this is weird. You study and actually exert effort, but your grades stay the same! What was that Robin said? "Work smarter, not harder"? Okay, you guess, you'll try that. But you only learned how to work now, so how can you tell how to work smarter?

 

Then you smack yourself, because you are smart. But how come you couldn't figure it out?

 

Maybe you're not smart at all.
 

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You don't remember promising your childhood one-sided love anything, but it seems a subconscious promise not to like anyone else because he was the best one you were surely going to encounter. But love is an unstoppable thing (you smack yourself again for thinking something that sounds so stupid), and soon enough you're breaking that promise left and right.

 

After a few (failed) advances, you notice a pattern. Early on in the year, some guy whom you've heard of before several times as a really awesome, smart dude makes friends with you and you fall head over heels for him like some stereotypical hormone-high, blinded high school idiot. You know it's shallow and it won't last, you know you're just grasping at straws, but you can't help but draw him every other time you see him.

 

Then a few long exams pass and he ranks first or second every damn time. By now you've accepted that you're commonplace in this school, but people like him still exist and why does he have to be so damn good at everything? 

 

It annoys you that people break down the school's social groups into castes, and the other version according to grades. You don't even want to know where you are in either spectrum, but surely you're nearly rock bottom and everyone you want to be friends with are high middle in at least one.

 

But it pisses you off more that you actually care about the castes.

 

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It's late and your system is still full of caffeine. You thought this night's pile of homework was going to take long, but you practically breezed through it and now the caffeine's pointless.

 

Still doesn't mean you're smart, though. Everyone knows homeworks are mercy points.

You lie awake in bed, flat on your back and eyes open, wondering how long the caffeine would last.

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lol I dunno. Just needed to vent, I guess. And play with second person.